Sunday, February 27, 2011

Jump out, jump out, get your groove on

Lovely people who I adore: I have been doing really well in the past week.  I know, right?  After my last'd think I'd be all jumping up and down to let you know that I'm happy.  And I AM, I just haven't had much time.

Yesterday was an odd Saturday.  I had to go in to the office this morning.  I just had a lot of stuff to get done and a giant wave of responsibility that came over me, forcing me to act like a grownup.  Afterwards, I came home to take care of HusbandCake who is sick.  He's been achey since Friday with a sore throat.  Don't get me wrong, I really do love taking care of my husband.  It's one of those things that just makes me feel happy...or...girly?  Wifely?  Whatever it is, I do enjoy caretaking.  At the same time, I am terrified of getting sick.  So he's been getting a lot of tea and soup and blankets


Seriously though, taking care of a sick person has been making my mind wander, and I got to thinking about this blog, about my weight loss, about everything I set out to do when I started this blog.  I have been thinking about taking care of MYSELF.  Longtime readers have probably picked up on the fact that I go through serious phases and lax phases.  Some weeks the only thing I have to be proud of is that I haven't done too much gaining of weight.

I think that taking care of myself is going to have to change going forward.  I am so excited about all of the mental and emotional taking care of myself that I've done lately and that I'll continue to work on intensely over the next couple of weeks.  Now I need to go forward and take better care of myself physically.  No more starts and stops, I need a sustainable lifestyle.

I know I'm not giving up meat for health reasons (although without a doubt my most unhealthy temptations tend to be meat dishes) but I've been doing really well without red meat.  I've had a couple of slip ups, but they were one-bite slip ups and I am not really beating myself up over them.  I'm ready now, to move on to other meat.  I'm hoping this goes easily for me - over the next couple of weeks I won't be around the temptation of meat sitting there mocking me deliciously.

Really though, I've been going through phases of running every day for a week and then not exercising for a week.  It's bad - I need a regular schedule.  I have started using my weekly calendar to plan out not just food but exercise as well.  I am going to force myself to take days off and not burn out.  Forcing myself to have treats, so that I am not tempted to go overboard.  Sustainable!

I so set out to blog about weight loss.  I guess I am writing about my process.  And I'm excited about it - now off for some healthy breakfast!!


Cladeedah said...

Dude, I think I've got it. I know why we feel the strong feelings we do about you-know-who/what. Maybe the more stressful our lives, the more intense the pleasure part has to be -- u know, so there's balance. Like I have a ridiculously stressful job, so I either watch the absolute worst, most mindless tv shows I can find, or I go to concerts. That's my work stress/personal fun balance. (Attorneys have the highest alvoholism rate of any profession, btw).

My friends who also have stressful lives but don't really have time for concerts or TV seem to derive their pleasure from food. The point is, everyone has something they do to strike the balance in their own life. The challenge is picking a healthy, positive something that's sustainable -- like u said. And then keeping the balance -- nit going too far into the pleasure realm, but far enough so you don't become a sad, mindless robot.

Cladeedah said...

Sorry a about all the typos above. I typed all that on my phone.

MizFit said...

and that's what it's all about IMO.
the process.
as there's never an end---or when there is we're just DONE.
and gone :)

until then, for me, it's still a process.

blog onward!


KyokoCake said...

@Claudia - YES, yes yes, I very agree with that. And even though objectively I wouldn't call my life stressful, I just deal with it so poorly that the only thing I can do is focus my energy on things that are stress free and really, really happy ;)

@Carla - Agreed, and I'm still feeling pretty good about creating my sustainable process, finding something I can REALLY keep up!!

Bobbi said...

Hi! I wanted to let you know I chose you to receive The Versatile Blogger Award (though you may have received this honor previously). Thanks for your awesome and inspirational posts! And happy Friday!

Pretty Pauline said...

I'm so glad to learn that you are in an excited place! And I totally relate to your last post in my own way, as I too assess my dealings with others. What a wild ride...

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