Now I'm REALLY Back (with a weigh in!)

I woke up this morning feeling like MYSELF. Maybe all I needed was a really great weekend to get me back in the right frame of mind. I’m in a great mood, looking forward to a super healthy week to finish out Super Healthy August, and I’m going to transition into Mostly Healthy September.

Here is how I did yesterday:
Burned 2354 calories
Consumed 1389 calories
Deficit of 965 calories

I have to get back to my land of 1000 calorie deficits every day. I miss them and I feel lazy when I burn so few calories. However it was worth it yesterday to feel a bit lazy, because it was a great day. Food wise my last week has been pretty bad. High calorie bad foods, and even though I didn’t eat a lot of them, they ate up my allotted calories like crazy. Food wise, the low of the week was Friday’s dinner. We were out with friends to a delicious dinner, ate a tapas-size plate of chicken and went to a play. Had a fabulous time…and then got home and realized that I’d eaten too much. It’s not that there was too much food or anything like that – it’s that I KNEW I wasn’t hungry anymore and kept eating. That knocked a good section out of my lego tower, that I haven’t completely rebuilt yet. I know I absolutely have to learn when to stop eating if I ever want to maintain a lower weight.

And I think I will, it is just taking longer than expected. Some things are so much easier in my structured kitchen where I portion the food out and then put it away in the refrigerator out of sight.

Saturday was not so much better with the food, I was up in Sacramento having a wedding dress outing with Jen, and we went out to lunch at this place that had mostly fried food. And yes, they had salads. Not the healthiest salads with all the add ins but they had them, and I just couldn’t bring myself to eat them – even after the guilt and stomach ache of the night before. So I had a grilled cheese sandwich. And it was delicious but literally tasted like it had been deep fried in butter. Regretting that one too. and then there was last night – I made chicken soup, and it was SO good, and so low calorie so I sat down to a nice big bowl of it…and then took a giant bite of Husbandcake’s Pasta Roni. Creamy, cheesy Pasta Roni. It wouldn’t have been so bad if I hadn’t taken another giant bite later, or that third bite. I woke up this morning just feeling determined – determined to not let this turn into a week of messing up. I really made a commitment to myself to be healthy this month, to see what changes in my life I can make to be healthier and eat better, and I want to get back to it and finish the month strong.

Let’s move on to something happier. Weigh in!
Last weigh in weight (2 weeks ago): 197.0
Last week’s weight (I didn’t post but still weighed!): 194.0
Current weight: 192.5
Pounds lost this week: 1.5

I know that’s not a huge loss compared to what I've been doing but earlier in the week I was down lower – this weekend did me in! So today I’m on top of my water consumption, have some extremely delicious and very healthy foods to be eating and I feel really happy. All that seems like it’s going to band together to help get the rest of the weight off. Yay!

More good news – I know I was so excited to win that Bodybugg for you guys and give it away but I got a more important win than a participation prize this past week. I lost the highest percentage of weight in the last weigh in. That’s what it is all about to me – not starving myself, but eating healthy and seeing the results I want to see. I am so happy, I can’t even tell you guys. Also…I did win a prize, and I am going to give it away on the blog so watch for it next week.

I’m going to end by saying that it’s really nice to be back. I’ve heard from quite a few of you who have struggled with depression and I just know that some of you will really understand what a great feeling it is to feel like yourself again, to not have the melancholy ruling your brain! It’s a great feeling and has given me awesome motivation for work today and the lunchtime walk. How’s that for a change of tone since last time??!