Change - REAL Change

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I am feeling pretty sleepy this morning. I am also mildly craving coffee – not actual coffee but sugar, cream and caffeine which is about how I usually take it. And at almost 200 calories a cup (still over half that when I use Splenda instead of sugar), I am trying to give it up. But today, I am a bit tempted to go make myself a bit of that candy sweet yummy warm drink to wake me up. I’ll get through it!!

Here is how I did yesterday:
Burned 2596 calories
Consumed 1073 calories
Deficit of 1523 calories

I went slightly off track yesterday. It was an accident though. I went shopping at Ikea and then out to an early dinner with a friend (for you locals, we went to the Marketplace in Emeryville because I know they had a salad bar, what I didn’t expect is how painful it was to walk by all of the various kinds of Asian foods that I know are oh so delicious). I had a teensy salad because that is what happened to be there, and then went home and had some mashed cauliflower that was beyond delicious. I made some mixed vegetables for dessert, or as the Bodybugg system calls it “late snack” – but then I just fell asleep and missed that whole mini meal.

Oh well, I’m back on track today with my delicious fruity breakfast and a ton of water. And no coffee!

I keep waiting for this moment to come…the moment where I realize I absolutely need a 100 calorie chocolate bar from Trader Joe’s, or crackers, or something. But it’s not coming. Sure, I am tempted by things but it’s not that NEED to eat certain foods that I expected. I am not irritable despite the fact that I haven’t had rice since Saturday (and believe me, my addiction to white rice has actually caused huge fights with HusbandCake in the past). I also realized yesterday that despite my blog theme I haven’t had REAL cake since I started this journey. I mean, angel food cake is great and I have had it twice…but we all know it can’t take the place of red velvet. Or could ever compare to an unfrosted yellow cake cupcake still hot from the oven. All right I’ll stop before we all go out and rob bakeries – but my point is that I’ve never set out to deny myself the most delicious of all desserts. If I really truly felt I needed it I would allow myself that luxury, but I haven’t. I’ve passed it up during birthday celebrations at work, and I’m still here, still alive, still me.

I got all contemplative about my diet and healthy lifestyle after I posted a comment over at I Go Through Life in Inches and Pounds, because I wrote that I didn’t eat a balanced diet and I didn’t know what to do to change that. I am realizing now that I DO know and I am actually well on my way...perhaps with a little help from Fat Girl Vs. World...who seemed to catch on faster than I did that maybe I was just looking for validation. Maybe I don’t eat perfectly (who does?) but looking at my diet now compared to what I was eating in May, it’s a great change. And by the time September rolls around I expect to be saying to myself that my diet is much more balanced that it was even in July!

What I need to do now is take my own advice. Give myself credit for learning and doing, and realize I am not the same girl who put off starting her healthy lifestyle so she could pig out and drink sangria one last time.

I think with everything I’m putting into words this morning I’ve built a whole floor on that lego tower.  Or maybe just built up around the foundation, which is just as important. I feel happy with myself. Physically I’m feeling great too…well, a little tired but that’s just due to watching tv too late (had to watch the Real Housewives of New Jersey, although it made me think I should do a tv-detox too…).

Anyway we all read and write so many posts about how we haven’t gotten anywhere or changed anything – and I want all of you to take today to realize you HAVE changed, just like me, just in such a good way that it iddn’t even occur to you. You’re amazing and getting or staying healthy – now go give your own Lego tower some new blocks!!