Sunday, August 1, 2010

Doing Something

So I think a lot of us on the weight loss journey can appreciate that negative outlooks or moods can affect our journey negatively.  I knocked a few blocks off of my Lego tower yesterday that I'm going to have to rebuild.  In my frustration I decided that the best course of action would be to have lunch at Costco. A hot dog later, I was feeling so gross and disappointed in myself.  So of course for the rest of the day I found myself craving and eating small quantities of not very healthy food.

Here is how I did yesterday:
Burned 2640 calories
Consumed 1444 calories
Deficit of 1196 calories

I woke up this morning knowing one thing.  I have to do something.  When I get in these moods, I need a change.  So I'm doing that detox diet I talked about yesterday.  It will be good.  It is a little fewer calories than I've been eating lately...if I stay on plan I will be eating an average of 1350 calories a day for the next four days, and then back up to my target of 1500-1600 for the week after.  I even made a really comprehensive meal plan, to keep me on track because I do feel like it's a lot of low calorie food and I want to make sure I eat it all and keep my energy up.

The point of this is to eat all healthy organic things, and the majority of food is fruits and vegetables (and to drink even more water than I normally do, which is a stretch).  I know there are a lot of you out there who do this every day all the time.  I don't.  It's not realistic for me to make that into a complete lifestyle change right now without expecting a huge backlash involving cupcakes and brie and lots and lots of bread, so I don't want to put that kind of change on myself.  I'm not even putting any pressure on myself to keep this up for the four days, much less the week after.  What I really want is that feeling, even if it's just in my head, that my body is ridding itself of the chemicals and sodium that it doesn't need.  But just from talking to friends and other people, a few days away from delicious and awful processed foods can really make you feel happy and much healthier.  Who knows, maybe I really will love it so much I swear off bad food and go all organic healthy forever!!  Or at least make some fabulous smaller changes.

I feel purposeful and happy after deciding that.  I think it's just a part of my personality, that I have to really feel like I'm making a big gesture to make something better.  I hate indecision and I like having a plan - and my enthusiasm really helps me once I do make that plan.  It does not always last, that's for sure, but it is really making me feel good today.

All right enough about all that.  I'm more sore this morning than yesterday - ugh!  I didn't want to exercise yesterday so I planned to not bike or walk or anything.  But Husbandcake and I got distracted in the garage.  See - we have a two car garage and we only have one car in it.  Because the other side is covered in mass amounts of crap.  Piles of bags and boxes that stack in some parts taller than me. 
So while I didn't exactly exercise yesterday but I did work pretty hard at cleaning out the garage - we got through maybe a third of it.  Today I will try to really, really take it easy so that I am all rested for the week ahead and feeling less physically drained.  I am however pretty excited that there's a nice walkway through the garage now.

Time to start my day with some delicious strawberries.  I have an awesome surprise for you tomorrow.  You won't even believe it - I barely believe it!  But it will be beyond fabulous, so get excited already!!!


Jen Lindstrom said...

I really should look into a detox thing also for a few days. I have tried them in the past but when I got off of them I was back to eating normal so it really did no good.

I love your blog because I really feel I can relate to what you are going through. It helps me feel Like I am not alone out there! I love this about the few blogs I follow! Keep up the amazing work, and remember we all have days we slip, mine was yesterday also.

Raegun said...

Don't downplay cleaning out the garage. I'm sure it shed quite a few calories and, more importantly, getting rid of clutter can make you feel so liberated and free. Love that feeling!
I can't wait to read about your detox. I try to follow a 'clean eating' plan most days and feel great when I stick to it.

Fat Girl vs. World said...

Don't do a complete renovation of your diet if you feel like it's something you can't maintain for the rest of your life...

Do things you know you can keep up with, that way you don't even notice the difference.

And I'll totally split a cupcake with you one day :)

Amelia said...

Just wanted to send you hugs because i can relate to those negative feelings. I just try to think about all the positive things in my life, sometimes it works...sometimes it don't. One thing is for sure...those feelings will pass. Good luck on your detox :)

KyokoCake said...

@Jen - it's tough to know how I'm going to react afterwards. I think I can get through it and try to keep up with being healthy as long as possible, or at least ease back into "normal"!

@Rae - I went back later and looked and I burned almost as many calories as walking a 5K...I credit a lot of it to being scared of spiders and running around

@Fat Girl vs. World - I did have a moment today when I thought I could keep this up. Maybe not every day but I could replace a good amount of crap with a good amount of good stuff...

@Amelia - Consider those feelings gone!! I am feeling great today :) I love when it DOES work to focus on the positive!

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