Monday, July 12, 2010

Back to Life...Back to Weigh Ins

How sad is it that my mini vacation is over?  I've been so lazy I'm almost embarrassed to post how many calories I burned yesterday!  I was too lazy to even go get a manicure and a pedicure (desperately needed, my nails are gross).  But I feel so refreshed and I feel so ready to get back to my normal exercise and eating routine.

Here is how I did yesterday:
Burned 1958 calories
Consumed 1302 calories
Deficit of 656 calories

Here is how I did Saturday:
Burned 2040 calories
Consumed 1230 calories
Deficit of 810 calories

I really didn't like those low deficits (my lowest yet, I believe) but I also know from the way I'm feeling, that I am going to jump back in today.  I am also prepared to find a way to realize that a break from work and from chores doesn't need to mean a break from exercising and eating well.  Once I get that down, I think I will be even better.

But let's get to where I want to be today - my weigh in:
Last week's weight: 212.0

Current weight: 210.1
Weekly goal: I think my weekly goal is going to be...to figure out what my reward will be once I am finally less than 200 pounds...

Now I will not lie - I am really happy about my loss this week!  But I'm also all about being honest so I kind of wanted to work through everything I've been thinking since I stepped on the scale this morning.  I've been thinking a lot and it's a good loss for one week but I'm just not 100% satisfied.

At first I was just happy to see a loss but the more I think about it the more I just don't understand.  1.9 lbs should be the minimum I'm losing every week.  Very simply put, weight loss is about burning more calories than you take in.  We can all count fat grams, carbs, all that but the science of it is, if you eat fewer calories than you use up you should lose weight.  Muscle, fat, whatever it is, you should lose it.  And I am not really losing the weight I should be losing, according to the calories I burn and the calories I eat.  Muscle building can account for some of it but there is a limit and I'm past it.  I'm not bodybuilding, only doing minor strength training, there is no reason for me to be losing only 6 pounds in a month and a half.

I'm putting a lot of effort into this and I am still not over the past two weeks that I only had 0.2 lb losses.  Why is that, on a day like today?  I feel like I should really be dropping the weight like nothing, but I am not seeing the results.  Yes, I am seeing a few results in measurements, but I can lose 20 inches off of my waist and to be honest, it will never mean the same thing as 20 pounds.  What an awful thing to think, but like I said I am trying to be honest here.

Last week after my loss I told Husbandcake and my sister that I wanted to make a doctors appointment and get some kind of help.  No, not a nutritionist, not advice - drugs.  Prescription drugs.  I am not going to act like I've made a final decision on this, although for now I've decided to hold off.  I know I'd be doing it out of laziness...because I don't want to work so hard for the results I've been getting.

So there you have it, even with a good weigh in I am still really questioning what it is that I've been doing, what it is that I am going to do next, and why I am just plain not losing weight in a way that corresponds to my big calorie deficits.  Maybe it is just a matter of lowering my expectations...but I know how hard I've been working and to not see my weight going down this much every week is in a way making it seem like I'm working at nothing.

Let's for a second get back to happy though.  Even with ALL THAT going through my head I am still so excited about the loss.  I mean come on!!  It's my biggest weekly loss since I started this whole thing - by almost a half pound!  It sounds like I am gloom and doom today but I'm really not.  I feel like I'm back on track and I want to keep up on this.  Honestly the difference I've seen this week is that I've exercised less and relaxed more so I'm wondering if that's something I might want to keep up.  I don't want to get back into another situation where I'm so exhausted from over-exercising that I make myself sick again!!

All right my wonderful, beautiful, supportive and amazing friends - I am ready to go attack my day, eat some healthy stuff and burn some calories and get started on another week that will turn out as awesomely as the one I just finished!

7 comments:

Poohpees World said...

Go get 'em! I know the day after day doldrums can affect anyone's outlook but you really can do this.

A loss is a loss. Remember that the effort will show up and not always on the scale. Sometimes measurements and the fit of clothing are all we have to go by. Those are still major accomplishments.

Keep doing what you are doing with the all the enthusiasm you can exude. It has changed you for the better and all this hard work will pay off!! You'll be so stinkin HOT that your sister and I will have go back to saying mean things, LOL!!

Love ya!

Adryon said...

Are your deficits too high??? 1300 calories is not a lot. Have you asked any of the trainers at work?

I worry about prescription meds...

But love you no matter what you choose!

Dhyana said...

Great blog Kim. Good luck!

Fat Girl vs. World said...

Experiment with eating more (fruits, veg, lean protein). See if "priming the pump" can encourage your body to let go of the weight.

If you convince your body that you will feed it, it's more comfortable burning it.

At 200lbs, what kind of drugs are you interested in? No drug can do for you what your brain is already doing. Just be patient and stick with it.

KyokoCake said...

@Brig - yeah right, you are doing so awesomely you'll get to your goal and I'll only be a couple of pounds along lol!

@Adryon - I don't mind having a low number of calories if I'm not exercising at all...the people I've talked to around here mostly say that it's a lot more about the deficit than the amount (as long as you meet a minimum of 1200-ish) and that on days when I'm doing a lot I need to eat more to keep up my energy.

@Dhyana - Thanks!! :)

@fat girl vs. world - Ummmmmm....magic pills? I have no idea. Honestly I hadn't thought it through beyond wanting to make things easier on me.

I talked to someone at work today who said another big problem that has to do with letting your body know you feed it is that I need to be eating more often...like splitting my meals and even snacks into two and wait a certain amount of time in between. I hadn't really thought of it before but am happy to try if it will help!

Fat Girl vs. World said...

Hon -- medicine/pills should be your last resort unless you have a medical condition (like PCOS, thyroid problems, hypertension, etc.) I am 100% confident that you can lose weight all by yourself. You've doing a great job so far.

When you eat smaller meals your metabolism is always being prompted to burn. Try with protein (egg whites, lean ham) and slow burning carbs (like oatmeal, barley, steel cut oats) in the morning, and gradually lighten up as the day goes on. See if that helps!

Just remember, most doctors/gp's are not really trained to deal with weight loss. They might give you some really bad advice.

Jess @ THIR said...

Firstly - thanks for your comment on my meltdown blog the other day. I really appreciate it.

Secondly - Haven't read the other comments, so I might be repeating myself... but...

You are right to say that weight loss is about burning more calories than you put in. Definitely. But weight loss is a totally different thing to FAT loss.

When it comes to losing fat, in general, you do have to watch what goes into your body, and make sure that it's nutritionally sound. I can go to McDonalds and have two Big Mac meals with fries (or whatever) to make up my 1800 calories for the day.

Would this be a top idea? Probably not, I would be hungry, not be getting the nutrients my body needs.
Yes we have days where we eat more than 40g of fat, or whatever.

I go with a standard, non-weight measurement these days, before I worry about calories.
I made sure I am getting 2 serves of fruit and 5 of veggies, which is hard if you only eat veggies at lunch or dinner.
Then I worry about protein, grains, and then fats in that order.

For example, I accidently designed a perfect day today. Oats with milk and a protein supplement for breakfast, a boiled egg on toast for breakfast, a chicken and avocado sandwich for morning tea, a homemade, low fat ceasar salad for lunch, carrot and celery sticks with tziki (spelling, sorry) dip for afternoon tea, and a tin of flavoured tuna for second afternoon tea (long time between lunch and dinner, lol).
I have an apple after my lunch, and an orange somewhere else in the day.
Tonight I will have a chicken and veg stir fry.

This ticks about all the boxes for me.

So, thing is... keeping fats down means you can eat more food right? How can that be a bad thing? And regardless of anything, I need routine, so have the same amount of calories every day.

And please, don't go to the doctor for perscription meds. I went down that path, and the meds that I was on caused me to get really bad gall stones, which gave me pancreatitis and almost killed me. The meds are just going to suppress your appetite, or give you dihorrea, or something like that. Most likely they are going to achieve more fluid loss than anything, and you don't want to become dependant on anything like that.

Sorry for the epic comment there, but I think you are doing REALLY well. The losses you have had so far are fantastic. I do often wonder about the deficits you have though, as some are quite large. I keep mine to around 500 a day, and (when I wasn't sick or injured) was achieving really good losses.

Ok, I could go on forever, so yeah... sorry... and well done ;)

 
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