So I already wrote yesterday how bad I was - I was shocked that it really wasn't so bad!!!
Here is how I did yesterday:
Burned 2228 calories
Consumed 1249 calories
Deficit of 979 calories
Not bad right?? But almost 2/3 of that was breakfast - yikes! I had fried egg sliders. With ground beef. Also had a neverending mimosa, which I had to guess at how much I drank because the waitress would not let my glass get even half empty.
I have been thinking about this comment from Friday's blog that stayed with me and I really wanted to talk about it because I actually find it REALLY important. Here is the comment:
Anonymous said...I have been reading some of your comments on your blog since you started. I am impressed with your resolve, however I have a question: You have stated in one blog entry that you 'dress cuter' than most girls you know (i'm paraphrasing). My question is: How is that possible when you are severely, obesely, overweight?
Let me start out by saying, what I meant when I said I dress cuter than most people I know, I meant my clothes and not how I look in them. I wear dresses and skirts, and my style has gone well past feminine into outright girly. Now I love that, and Husbandcake does too, and we both think that I wear the cutest things. Hence the comment - and it's not meant to insult any of my friends because I 100% believe that they think I'm a complete nut to be dressing like this all the time, and I'd guess most of them think their clothes are the cutest.
But when I read the comment what I heard was "how can someone be cute and fat at the same time?" I know, that's a really defensive way to read it but my gut reaction was that someone was mildly insulting me. I'm not insulted though, because anyone who can see the way my husband looks at me, would understand how I can feel beautiful. In a dress, in sweats, makeup, total mess, whatever. Every time he looks at me I know there is someone who thinks I look better than anyone else in the world.
I get that it doesn't work for everyone. Obviously, because not everyone is married to Husbandcake. But the idea that fat people can't be attractive - is complete crap. I accept though that things like this are a big deal, and I think that there are two main reasons. First, that people are sensitive about their weight. Most overweight people I know are more sensitive about that than any other feature (eye color, hairstyle, clothes). And second, there are just a lot of overweight people out there. So to say that the entire lot of them are unattractive is cutting out a huge group.
My personal belief on it is that it's ok to think that fat people are ugly as long as you recognize that it is an OPINION not a FACT. When I think about what makes someone unattractive to me I immediately think: facial hair. I absolutely have never been attracted to someone with facial hair and when Husbandcake doesn't shave his whole face just looks like it's going to attack and scratch me if I try to kiss him. We can all accept that it's just my opinion though, right? I mean how many girls out there just love a guy with a goatee or with that rugged stubble look? So many!!! So it's not a fact that men with facial hair are ugly, is it? Well in the same way - it's definitely not a fact that fat people are ugly. YOU might not be attracted to them, and you might feel that nobody else is either - but a lot of people are.
And just to clarify I'm not talking about beautiful on the inside - I'm saying that there are people out there who find us beautiful on the outside. And I get that they don't appreciate it when other people think it's a fact that they can't be considered beautiful, hot, sexy, cute, all those things. I hope that overweight people realize that they are prettier than they give themselves credit for, just as pretty as any thin person walking around!!
All right - I'm stepping off my soapbox for my weekly weigh in!
Starting weight: 216
Current weight: 214.5
Goal weight: 120
Weekly goal: I want to choose and buy a bike this week, I'm already tired of walking! Also I want to drink at least 40 oz of water every day this week.
A pound and a half down!! Not bad :) I'm actually really happy with my progress especially after feeling like I ate so poorly this weekend. I woke up this morning feeling a bit sore throaty, it already seems better but I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I don't get sick - being out of commission just really interrupts my exercise and I don't want to lose this momentum!!